today i am going to try to get something accomplished. yesterday all i did was sleep. i woke up around 5PM and ate dinner. that was basically all i did. it really needs to end. i'm wasting my life here, all i do is eat, sleep, and go to the gym. i used to have hobbies, like gardening, sewing, painting, playing music, etc. but now that i'm in college, all i do is hang out. it's pathetic. i realllllly need to get my shit together and start living again. i hate this empty, absurd person i've become. "i used to want it all// i used to be somebody."
i guess i'll try to start today, because last week was so horrible. i'm not sure i even went to a single class. i'm just glad it will all be over in a week. but i can't really go home- i don't really have a home. i've lived all over the place... there's nowhere that feels like home. it's sad.
but i swear, i'll try as hard as i can to change. i was completely different before i came to college, and i just want to get back to how i was.
yep.
skip to main |
skip to sidebar
"just an ordinary girl at war with the everyday world"
I've been through college and let me tell you, it's completely normal to do fuck all for 2+ years. I was exactly the same and now I've been out earning a living for 18 months I seem to be returning to all my old hobbies.
ReplyDeleteI think the more time you have the more you time you waste. Don't bother yourself about it, all students are lazy, that's what college is about.